43 Random Things About Me (Pt 1)

1. I cant sleep without a blanket
2. I easily cry at the end of feel good romantic movies
3. I cry for no reason at all.
4. I get paranoid at the smallest things
5. When I was like 5, I thought of running away because my parents wont buy me Play dough
6. Smokes fascinate me.
7. I love the rainy season.
8. I like boy stuffs.
9. I totally despise piggy boys.
10. I have no stereotypical dress code: sometimes sporty, girly, sultry or just plain ordinary.
11. I feel sleepy every time I drink alcohol.
12. When I say sorry, I mean it. It’s not just one of my expressions.
13. I’m posh like when I curse.
14. Cursing doesn’t dissipate my reserved image.
15. When I say, I don’t get angry. I mean that.
16. I just get irritated.
17. I don’t hurt people when I’m angry, except when I’m fighting with my younger siblings.
18. When I’m not talking, I’m probably thinking of what to say, or I just have nothing to say.
19. But sometimes, I just don’t want to say what I’m thinking about.
20. I like piggy things or designs.
21. I’m a mean girl.
22. Only people I have divulged my thoughts into know that for a fact.
23. I’m only mean towards the opposite sex who exudes fondness over me.
24. I don’t like being touched on the shoulders.
25. If you want to hold me, my waist is a better option.
26. Compliments don’t work on me. I don’t trust people who say nice things to me.
27. Alcohol gives me allergies.
28. I love coffee…
29. Remember that coffee before alcohol is a bad thing.
30. I’m a chocoholic.
31. I love reading more than writing.
32. I enjoy the company of myself.
33. I’m a self professed lazy ass bum
34. NO matter what preparation/plan I do, I always end up procrastinating.
35. I have an eye for colors that blend well.
36. I have a long time crush on one of my father’s men.
37. He’s getting married soon. This is his second attempt.
38. My thoughts fly out the window when I’m bored.
39. I like writing poems or sketching things during class hours.
40. I love sketching my teachers or professors.
41. Do not ask me advice about dealing with your boyfriend.
42. I’ll just tell you to go and break up with him.
43. But I normally give out excuses for the guy to give the situation two sides.

Double Loss

Of all the “pedestrian-me” frenzies I’ve experienced as a student, yesterday was just plain worse. I apologize for not being able to update you guys on what’s happening in my life. But another digress I must take.

I was in such a haste to make it at Katipunan in time. I nearly thought two of my friends are already painfully waiting for me. But I was surprised arriving at a game an hour before its starts, is painfully early.

My friend, L had already bought the tickets (Gen Admission) and urged to already come inside the Blue Eagle Gym to watch the Tigers brawl with the Eagles. This was the second time I was able to watch a UAAP game held at the Ateneo. And I noticed too that they had replaced the blue eagle logo with the ADMU one. I liked the eagle more though.

It was soo pissing off because we waited outside the ADMU/DLSU side. As archers were crowding us in, I could hear them scream with glee as the eagles were losing. It hurts to see my favorite UAAP team lose. *sob*

[Aside: I saw that jerk! The nerve! I could sense that he was looking at me as I fixated my eyes on the court. And before he could approach me, I told L for us to go to the other side as the gang green is such an eye sore! Haha!]

And on with the UP-DLSU game. It was a tight game, but at the fourth quarter yta, this former archer now maroon guy, passed the ball to an archer (no maroon was in the surrounding area!) It looked more as if a sure pass… but to the dark side? “What was that?” I said to myself. Duh? Nakalimutan ba yang sa UP na sya naglalaro? SAYANG talaga!!! The Maroons could’ve won!

Then Yeo just made 3 shots to win the game, 3- 3 point shots! Unbelievable. It made me conspire a theory that Pumaren had planned, all so well, to make it a tight game, and reserve the Archers energy to get back by the end of the game. From a close fight, it ended with a 14 points lead in favor of the green side.

We could’ve bagged the final four slot already if we won this game! Goodness. All the Maroons need to do now, is to beat UE& and perhaps hope that DLSU lose their remaining games.

UE won over the plea of DLSU’s triumph over their recent game. Yey!

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Writing: On Hiatus

I’m a little confused on how it feels.

Back then, you used to write everything that happens to your life with the only goal finding some instance that’s worth telling to people. Yes, the only thing that drives you not to stereotype your life as “boring” or “dull”, to find something extraordinary that happened to a particular day. Back then, you used to scribble silly poetry when you’re bored at class, you used to write articles intended to be advices for friends, you used to write something, anything.

But now:

You write about something new.

You tell your friends what you really think. You say something without implying that they should do this and that. You give them a chance to look at both sides.

Now, you doodle your nickname, with smooth elaborate curves and adding a touch of love at the end. Now, instead of scribbling notes, you allow your thoughts to play with the inquisitive tongue of your professor.  

Now, you write nothing but your name and how it attests how egoisitc you can be. The butterflies in your head, they say, had fled to somewhere place.

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Hurt Crying

Your eyes are burning. And when you close them there’s this paroxysm felt in the deeper regions of your chest. It’s the kind of pain one cannot explain. And you know that no remedy can ease the ache.

Slowly, the heat irritates your eyes as it wells up into tears. But you tell yourself not to cry. You know how it feels. You are being stripped of your soul and the feeling throbs and you cant make it stop.

And you bury yourself under the pillows, your now damp soft pillows.

Figure Concious Eating

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My little sister brought home some pastries. I like this one best. It’s  a good thing I don’t have colds anymore. Now, I can eat all the sweets I want. Yey!!!

Doesn’t it look like a crushed beetle? Anyhoo. Ang sarap nya sobra. Its a slice of chocolate cake topped with super daming icing and covered with chocolate syrup. Gosh. I’m so addicted to eating this thing.

Tataba ako lalo nito.

>Speaking off. I did put on some fat cells but my weight’s still the same. Wierd, isn’t it? A little while ago, my little brother way poking my back. He was amused to find out that it became soft and unbony as it used to be. I’ve been having fat all over. As in, in ALL places. Whaa. Kailangan ko ng magpasexy uli, tulad ng sabi dati ni Meg.

I didn’t really notice that back when I was in highschool, I had perfect curves. Then why didn’t people tell me that a long time ago? Why now, that  I have gotten all so chubby? Makes me feel so insecure. Ah basta. kailangan ko ng pumayat by the next two weeks, dami pa namang gimik nun.