My Signs of Immaturity

We all have a kid inside us no matter how old we become, as they say. Unfortunately I have a lot of it in me, especially the stubborn and hard headed ones. Here’s a list of my own little immature ways:

• Incapacity to control one’s emotions

              Whenever I feel a lot of pressure and physical pain (pms) dawning on me I suddenly snap and blabber angrily, while crying. It is so hard for me not to cry when I’m at the brink of blowing my top off. And what’s worse is I get this emotional flashes in public (sometimes)! SIguro it comes with being too open(?)  during college that I submit myself into vulnerability regardless of my surroundings.

• Complying with the rule of norms

             I think some pople would like to be different from everyone else just to make a stand on who they are and what their ideals say about them. And I happen to be one of them. Although I guess that I am not so different after all. It just so happens that there are fewer people who are not afraid to present the world with new ideas and beliefs.

            I hate it when my certain taste for example, on music or people(?) suddenly takes the mainstream road. My interest lessens and I tend to look for new things to define  “me.” I think I’ve been differentiating myself from other people that I tend to abondon the things that I really like.  

• Visibility of tantrums

             Gusto ko ung gusto ko palagi ang nasusunod. I always want to get what I want. But this does not make me a spoiled brat. I just happen to not want too many things, i say to myself as a defense. Hindi ako nagtatampo or anything, I try to do it like an upset 7 year old. “I lock myself in my room, “do not eat”, “do not talk to anyone unless they realized that I’m positively right on what I want.”

• Obstinacy/Obduracy/stubborness
  

             When I have a certain thing in mind, like goals, food, ideals and taste I don’t usually change my mind overnight. Like no matter how credible and sensible a speaker is, if it doesn’t agree with what I believe in, I partially diss it out. I do respect other poeple’s opinions but I don’t usually concede with the other party just please him/her.

• Averting to face certain problems

      This is my worst part. I tend to jump into “a blank canvas to start all over again rather than mending the painting in fear of smudging.”

• Defiant when it comes to authority figures 

      Matigas ang ulo ko eh. Ayokong ginagawa ang isang bagay dahil lang sa sinabi nila or dahil expected akong gawin un. I just do things when I have, need, or want to do them in my own time.

• Working on my mood
  

             I can’t write when I’m not the mood even if I have these really great ideas, because the wording, (like the stuff here in my blog) will go on a disastrous mode. I always wait for this sudden urge of inspiration AND the right tools to do it with before starting to work on something. I can work if it’s very technical and does not require too much creativity. But most of the time, it does involve a lot of ingenuity and deep ponderings to make the base idea really really good. Developing a project is the most crucial step because you could lose the drive and perseverance when your working on it. I either get bored or decide to dump my idea for new one.

• Snubbing people

             This makes other people think that I choose who to socialize with (but that’s not entirely true, right guys?). Just because I don’t talk to them like I should be doing doesn’t mean Im belittling who they are. But then again, deliberately evading a conversation with some people is a very immature thing to do. [Gawd, I hate socializing, I’m just not a people person.]

• Guy(friend)s
  

             Uh oh. Touchy topic here. Guys and girls can be just friends…. even if they’re both good looking and interesting. It’s really okay for me to be the bad guy in the relationship, say “Nuh, uh. Cheated me once and your *toot* will go to the chopping block.” But when it comes to friends, I don’t like to be hated just because he mistook my friendliness for something else. I actually don’t fret much about it that I treat him the same way even if he really asked for something more. Why? Just because I like him too much that I want to keep him as a friend.

              And take note of being defiant when I’m expecte to be or do something. When someone expects me to show affection, lalong hindi ko iyon ipapakita. Bakit? Hindi ko rin kasi alam eh, siguro ayoko lang maging predictable.

Immaturity or childishness may seem to be a negative trait among people, it has it’s good sides too, says Bruce Charlton :

“…since modern cultures now favor cognitive flexibility, “immature” people tend to thrive and succeed, and have set the tone not only for contemporary life, but also for the future

and:

By contrast, many modern adults fail to attain this maturity, and such failure is common and indeed characteristic of highly educated and, on the whole, effective and socially valuable people,..”

-Discovery News 

 PS: And no. Being a Hello Kitty Addict is not being childish. ;P

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