My Signs of Immaturity

We all have a kid inside us no matter how old we become, as they say. Unfortunately I have a lot of it in me, especially the stubborn and hard headed ones. Here’s a list of my own little immature ways:

• Incapacity to control one’s emotions

              Whenever I feel a lot of pressure and physical pain (pms) dawning on me I suddenly snap and blabber angrily, while crying. It is so hard for me not to cry when I’m at the brink of blowing my top off. And what’s worse is I get this emotional flashes in public (sometimes)! SIguro it comes with being too open(?)  during college that I submit myself into vulnerability regardless of my surroundings.

• Complying with the rule of norms

             I think some pople would like to be different from everyone else just to make a stand on who they are and what their ideals say about them. And I happen to be one of them. Although I guess that I am not so different after all. It just so happens that there are fewer people who are not afraid to present the world with new ideas and beliefs.

            I hate it when my certain taste for example, on music or people(?) suddenly takes the mainstream road. My interest lessens and I tend to look for new things to define  “me.” I think I’ve been differentiating myself from other people that I tend to abondon the things that I really like.  

• Visibility of tantrums

             Gusto ko ung gusto ko palagi ang nasusunod. I always want to get what I want. But this does not make me a spoiled brat. I just happen to not want too many things, i say to myself as a defense. Hindi ako nagtatampo or anything, I try to do it like an upset 7 year old. “I lock myself in my room, “do not eat”, “do not talk to anyone unless they realized that I’m positively right on what I want.” (more…)